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♥ Wednesday, February 18, 2009 ♥

  • It's 440am & i'm updating my blog as elaine is editing my mini-bio & description of key works & theories.
  • By right i should feel tired now but because of having e sense of achievement(completing mini-bio & description of key works & theories for hmt) makes me awake.
  • However, I'm also feeling quite down now after Shun Jian told me that Pete is not very happy with me for not going for the coach training.
  • It sounds as if I choose not to go for tr? In actual fact do I have a choice? Isit wrong now that I'm firm on my decisions & set my priorities right?
  • It's TRUE that NOBODY will understand y u choose to DO or SAY things in certain ways cause everyone is UNIQUE.
  • WHY am i so affected by what other things of me? I should learn e HACK CARE attitude when it comes to what people thinks of me but did i? Yes. I'm learning hard. =)
  • This is e 2nd time i break into tears today or should say i i broke into tears yest morning & this morning since is 4am now? =)
  • 1st i broke ito tears cause i feel that i should treat my mother better.
  • Nowadays my attitude is getting from bad to worse due to my temper.
  • 1stly it's cause of this few weeks hecticness & i'm learning to manage my anger & stress.
  • Can somebody please teach me how to? haas...
  • 2ndly, i'm very affected by what Pete thinks of me although he dont even care. Y am I always e silly 1? =)
OKies.
  • Now come to my own anger & stress managment.
  • I'll talk rubbish when I'm stressed & tired.
  • I even screamed at those who give me attitude.
  • PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR GIVING U ATTITUTE.
  • I'M LEARNING TO HANDLE MY ANGER.
  • of course i know it's very rude to do all those stated about but i just cant control.
  • I destress through venting out- regardless of verbal or through actions.
  • so if i'm in a very bad mood please saty away from me.
  • just leave me alone to cool myself down if not i'll shoot u until all my bullets are empty & u will be the 1 who will get injured caused of all that i did...
  • actaully i just want to go to e beach to stream everything out but do u think i have e time? no. hmt is due tmr. hrm is due next mon. mp test is next thurs. mab test is next next tues.
  • i'm like dying...
  • can i just go & die? haas...
  • is this what u want after all?
  • do u want to just die after 21 years of living?
  • do u want to disappoint your beloved mother who had 9 mths trouble having u?
  • can u be more emotional stronger then what u r?
  • can u please learn things as fsat as can cause u r living in a fast pace world where no one will always be there for u to take your time & grow...
  • it's not tt i want what...
  • i've already learning things as fast as i could yes trust me...
  • everyone have their own capability...
  • no one can just change into another person in just 1 night
  • humans learn through modelling, observing & all these needs time...
  • frankly speaking this is e 2nd time i did a project in rmit until so late through my schooling days...surprised right?
  • this shows that i did put my heart & sole into these 2 projects when i really want to
  • & this also shows that u r not putting enough efforts for other projects that's why u only got a pass or even failed some modules.
  • CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES
  • U REAP WHAT U SOW
  • some ppl might think that it's too late that i'm finally wiser in studies but to me...
  • IT'S BETTER LATE THEN NEVER
  • i should be thankful that i still can study a degree despite my family condition & is hould really RESPECT my mother for bringing us up & not ARGUEING WITH HER...
  • what will u get eventually when u argue with people?
  • everyone has thair own thinking so do not impose your thinking on other people cause everyone is UNIQUE
  • people will model u if they like what u r doing or saying w/o u even asking them to do so for their best interest
  • i think only MOTHERS will keep telling & that's what I am. haha... =p
Ok la. Guess i should stop her le. Now i know why mz feel much better after blogging out her unhappiness. haas...u'll feel emo,cry but only for a short while & u'll regain from it after blogging everything out. heex...

okies. so i shall KEMPATEI for all e upcoming tests & projects!!! YES!!! I CAN DO IT!!! haas...I will have all e resources that i will need during the whole month of February until MArch when i'm researching,drafting,editing my assignments,studying for my tests & when i'm doing my tests =)

& i shall upload all my pics during mar. heex...all e pics tt i've taken during e whole of feb. sorry for e delay but it's better to be late then never... =p

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